"What You Want Isn’t Always What You Need"

Dear, readers. In life, we have a lot of things we wanna do. We make some plans and goals. Some of you are probably have ever been in my condition, when i feel so confused with what do i have to do in order to make a CHOICE. Yeah, life is a choice.

Actually, this confusion starts when I’ve even decided my 3 best choices from about 6 choices. Well, but UNFORTUNATELY these 3 stuffs are having the same time!!!

This is about my 1st choice, let’s call it an A choice. I took this one as the 1st because i was thinking that this one is sooooo important to improve my skill. And i used to love this such a thing since i was in High School. And I got a very cool coach I’ve ever had, she is such a great mentor for me, and plus she is like a mother for me. Another mom in another place :D alright, now this is different. In the very first time i met my coach, it was such a boring and annoying practice class. He’s bit scary, gaaaah I don’t feel any joy in his class! But back to my passion on this stuff, I go on and on, facing one-by-one assignments and yeah I DID IT ! i got a chance to improve my skill in a competition. I was well happy. But then, RIDICULOUSLY, something happened and boooooooo it’s been cancelled ! i felt so down! Hey, I thought everyone in this place knows me! How I was so excited with this one! And how I struggle to got into this by taking all of these sucks assignments!!! Well, I’m still trying to forget this, but this isn’t easy as what I’ve done for this stuff! Urgggggg...

But, there’s another good news in a bad news. I got a very exciting news and chance for me. And of course I TAKE IT ! :D this is such a drug for me after having a down-desease! :D this is my story with another choice, i call it my B choice. This is an art stuff, i love being in this stuff, well not stuff actually, this is such a FAMILY for me! Lord, i feel so warm in it! And what i learnt is; “It’s better  choose the one which make you feel COMFORT rather than the one that you like so much but doesn’t even make you feel any comfort” !!!

I’m still working on a “Big Project” with this family ;) and I wanna focus with this one and make a huge goal for me and obv my family J i do have a big hope and willing to make it happen! Let’s see J

Another choice is C choice. Well, i don’t know much about this choice though. But these last but not least choice was actually my very FIRST choice before getting into these 3 choices. This one is harder but bigger or bigger but harder :D I mean, it has a bigger points for me but harder to do. This is an art stuff also. And i love this one so much! But again, i don’t feel as comfort as my B choice. I feel like being forced. Well, my A choice is worse though, I feel under the pressure! This is what i want to do, but I’m not sure if it what I also need.

I’m not quit yet for this moment, I’m trying to find out what’s the matter and the best answer to do. But right now, I have my B choice to focus with and I’m off for a while from another both choices. And I will make sure do i want and need my A and C choices and what should I do later.

Thank you for reading. I hope it might be useful.

Sweet regard, Neets.